John is traveling tonight, so I am home alone. I had a beer with the guys at work, went for a short 4 mile run and I am currently cooking myself dinner. I've noticed that since going to bed 1/2 hour earlier at night I have so much more energy and I'm more focused at work. I guess I really do need a full 8 hours. Although I'm a little embarrassed to say I go to bed around 9:45.
It is now less than 2 weeks until my first ultra marathon and I'm feeling better about it. The Fear has been replaced with Excitement, which is a much better emotion to have. I was talking with an old high school friend not too long ago and it got me thinking about where I am and how far I've come.
When I started training for my first triathlon, I couldn't run 2 miles without stopping. I had never swam competitively. The longest I had ever biked was about 10 miles. I wore size 10 pants and weighed 146 lb. I was embarrassed in a swim suit.
As of today, my longest run is 20 miles, my longest bike is 110 miles, I have completed 5 triathlons, 4 1/2 marathons, and too many "fun runs" to count. Most of the pants and skirts in my closet are now a size 6. I had to 2 expensive suits to Goodwill because the cost to have them taken in was almost as much as buying one new. Ironically enough, I now weigh about 142, but I think it's safe to say my weight has been redistributed. If I had body fat numbers, that would probably be a better comparison. And as for swim suits, I wear what works and what is comfortable. I own more spandex now than I care to admit.
The biggest difference for me is that I am finally comfortable in my own skin. I ran in just a sports bra the other week and I NEVER would have done that a few years ago. I don't care if I get funny looks in my running tights. My body isn't perfect, but I am grateful for what I have and what I can do with it. I think that has been the most rewarding experience in all of this training. I don't care about my size or weight, because there are other numbers that are more important.
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